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I Don't Want That Spirit in Me

Spiritual WarfareFreedomConvictionSurrender

A gospel-rap prayer from the middle of a tense household: a believer refuses to absorb the heat of conflict, asks God to quiet the strife, and learns to stand in armor without letting bitterness make a home in the soul.

"For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind."
2 Timothy 1:7

A song for the road you're on.

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I Don't Want That Spirit in Me
Dirt Road Gospel Music
DirtRoadGospelMusic.com

[Verse 1]
Same words cuttin' through the kitchen like a blade
Sharp edge on every sentence, never come to negotiate
Criticism loaded, complaint on repeat
Accusation in the air thick enough to taste the heat
"You never listen, you always put yourself first"
"Nothin' ever changes, I'm the only one who works"
I've heard the whole catalog, I know it by heart
But I'm bitin' my tongue so I don't tear the whole room apart
I feel the pull to fire back, make my case, present the evidence
Feel the bitterness knockin', wantin' permanent residence
But I catch it at the door, I don't let it take a seat
'Cause I don't want that spirit in me — refuse the transfer of the heat

[Hook]
I don't want that spirit in me
I don't want that spirit in me
Quiet the strife in this house
And keep it from takin' root in me
I can't change what I can't control
But I can choose what I carry, so I pray

[Verse 2]
I've read the old book, better a dry crust with peace
Than a full table with war that never finds release
Thought about the rooftop, just to breathe without the noise
But runnin' ain't the assignment — You still callin' me to stand
So I put the armor on when the arrows start to fly
Belt of truth cinched tight so I don't live inside the lie
Breastplate coverin' the heart when the guilt gets loud
Helmet locked on my mind when it's spinnin' in the doubt
Shield of faith up high — them darts don't get to land
I don't get to stop the storm, but I don't have to become it

[Hook]
I don't want that spirit in me
I don't want that spirit in me
Quiet the strife in this house
And keep it from takin' root in me
I can't change what I can't control
But I can choose what I carry, so I pray

[Bridge]
Lord, soft the heart that's turned so hard
And soft the places in me that want to go cold
Quiet the spirit of strife walkin' through these rooms
And don't let it make a home in my soul
I bring this whole thing to You — her, me, the air between us
I got no perfect words left, just this:
Do what I can't
Keep me steady
And teach me how to stay soft enough to still hear You
While I stand

[Final Hook]
I don't want that spirit in me
So I pray